The Art of Failure

So I failed yesterday. Quite literary failed. My weekend was a mess of activity with long, wild bouts of inactivity. My time got messed up and I ended up being up until 3:30 or so Monday morning. You can imagine my ire when 6:00 came... I saw the girls off to work/school and went back to bed, crying foul of illness. I spent the day doing a little work, trying to get a broken lawn mower working, and cleaning up a bit. What I failed to do, was go for a run. Why? No idea. Maybe my mind hates me, maybe something inside just said, no.

Resolved: Failure is a part of life. Better to learn from it then dwell on it.

I felt bad all day. So bad I had a pop. I don't usually dink pop except for the weekends and holidays, so that made me feel even worse! Maybe it was guilt. Maybe it was being tired, but the day dragged and my mood worsened. Honestly though, I think it was just a lack of will power. This running thing needs to be a lifestyle, the norm, no the exception. I'm still getting used to that and will stumble along the way. Yesterday I put a giant foot in a pothole along my road to not being fat. Time to patch up that hole, set out again, this time with a little self knowledge of what failure makes me feel like and how to avoid it.

So, that's that. This morning was good. I was out for about 32 minutes and the same amount of time, which means I'm speeding up a bit. Good to see, I just wish my gut would begin to show it! I know, I know it takes time. They say not seeing immediate results is the biggest reason people stop exercising. The biggest pothole of them all, maybe even a potcanyon.

Resolved: Immediate Results are easy; Lifestyle changes take time.

Sp reset, buckle up and push yourself out of bed. Have running cloths stationed and ready to go so that there is nothing hanging you up getting outside the house in the morning. You failed yesterday? Make it better tomorrow. Hell, make it better today. Wednesday is normally an off day for me. This week, Wednesday can go to hell cause I'm running the shit out of you!

Until next time, trying to be honest with myself and the world.

Tuesday, June 28
Time out: 6:07. Time in: 6:38
Distance: 2.82 miles
Walks: 2; Inhaler use: 3
Songs:
Green Day, 21st Century Breakdown
Green Day, Before the Lobotomy
La Roux, Bulletproof
Katy Perry, California Girls
Green Day, Christians Inferno
Mike Posner, Cooler than Me
Usher, DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love
(Note, got a new phone/ipod last night. I thought I sinked all my music. I guess I just put the crappy 61 songs on that I've been listening to for like a month! I need to re-sink tonight with more / better music!